Saturday, September 12, 2009

Me and My BIG Mouth/I Am Peter

This has been a very humiliating couple months for me... I have a BIG mouth. I often feel like Peter. "I will NEVER Lord." Yeah, I have heard that whole "never say never thing." I am really good at saying never and at being very bold about it! I am also very good at changing my mind.

Let me explain...

I had never had a baby before but I made sure to tell everyone and their... hippo... that I was not going to get an epidural... NEVER EVER! My wise sister said: "maybe you should wait to say things like that until after you have had a baby." "Whatever" was my reply. Low and behold, Rhea came on July 17th 2007 and I told the nurse to hook "it" up... it being the wonderful epidural. When Ricky came you better believe I had them hook it up as well :0)

Next, and possibly most embarrassing, I told everyone that would listen (or rather not listen) that I was going to "let God plan my family". My mom said: "Maybe you should wait to see how you feel after you have a couple of kids." Again, my response: "Whatever". Low and behold, a couple kids later, I am changing my mind. Why can't I just keep my BIG mouth shut? The Lord is using this season to teach me SO much and to humble me greatly.

My wonderful husband was telling me that even though this time is very embarrassing and very humiliating God is going to use it greatly. He does tend to use those embarrassing and humiliating times, doesn't He? He is very good that :0) For when we are weak, then He is strong.

I love this proverb: Proverbs 17:28 "Even a fool is thought wise if he keeps silent, and discerning if he holds his tongue." I've got the whole fool part down... now I just need to work on keeping silent/holding my tongue.

So for now, Scott and I are allowing number 3 to come as the Lord wills. After that... who knows I AM KEEPING MY MOUTH SHUT. James 4:13-14 says: "13Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." 14Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes." SO GOOD! Why do I even bother telling others what I am going to do in the future? I don't even know what will happen tomorrow. Please help me Lord to KEEP MY BIG MOUTH SHUT.